WEARING YOUR CONFIDENCE

WHERE IS MY BEAUTY?

The most you will ever see me is with a filled in brow,with no concealer to even define it... Everything else is bare with my darkspots, huge undereye bags and wrinkles all over the place and oh, probably a little mascara to bring out my lashes just so I don't look dead and on a lucky day you will catch me with  moisturized lips.

I remember back in the days, when I found out about makeup, OMG I was thrilled with what art one can actually do to their own face and to top it up this art enhanced thier beauty!! Need I say less, I was so enthused and obsessed that not a single day goes by without me watching YOUTUBE on how to fill in the brows, how to contour, how to get sharp eye liners and you know what.... As the day days went by I found my self putting these youtube lessons to use. Shoutouts to PEAKMILL on youtube, she was the first youtuber I discovered and say what, I admired her so much that I wanted to be her 🙈.

Before I knew it I was in MAC, Sephora and local beauty supply stores asking to be matched with my shade of foundation..lol and the next thing I knew I couldn't go a day without wearing makeup. My confidence was spiked to another level, I felt good about myself with a well beat face (at least even though I wasn't a guru after watching all the videos I still knew I was the sh*t with my face beat). I never felt as good as  I did when I use to wear makeup almost everyday but also not forgetting how beautiful I am inside out even without makeup.

WHY DID I STOP WEARING MAKEUP THEN,YOU ASK?

As confident and good as I felt wearing makeup daily , I realized it brought discomforts to other people. Phrases like, "oh, she probably looks ugly without makeup", " Its crazy because I never seen you without makeup" (lies 😑) , "YoU wEaR tOoooO mUch MakEuPP" among others became too much for me to bear. I decided not to listen to the NAYSAYERS and keep doing my thing because only I knew the reason behind me doing makeup on a daily, was for me to master the  art and not to cover my insecurities and"ugliness" but these negative sentiments from people close to me definitely tore me down.

I decided on my own to stop wearing makeup not to neccessarily please the naysayers, but to free myself of the negative feelings I had from hearing people talk down on me because I wear makeup, (yeah, you could say they one way or the other had an influence on me) and being that I'm not too good at being criticized I broke down and succumbed to them!!! I went a whole week without makeup, then two weeks and I honestly didnt feel any different than I used to feel when I had on makeup. I definitely felt happy and free from NOT having to hear what people got to say about me wearing too much makeup... weeks turned into months and even to the extent that I go out to programs and events without a beat face but filled-in-brows and till date I walk up to my office with no makeup on a everyday basis. Looking back, I realized I probably missed a good opportunity at exploring my creativity due to peoples sentiments and hence the reason behind this blogpost.

Fast forward to my new age and life, I have decided to do me, by me and for me and I propose you do same. Do not miss a good opportunity at life listening to others !!

until then, thanks for reading

xoxo, Naa

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